{"id":317,"date":"2016-03-04T10:38:33","date_gmt":"2016-03-04T08:38:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/?page_id=317&#038;lang=en"},"modified":"2016-04-01T10:31:20","modified_gmt":"2016-04-01T07:31:20","slug":"help-me","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/en\/books\/help-me\/","title":{"rendered":"Help Me"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"wpb-content-wrapper\"><p>[vc_row row_type=&#8221;row&#8221; use_row_as_full_screen_section=&#8221;no&#8221; type=&#8221;grid&#8221; angled_section=&#8221;no&#8221; text_align=&#8221;center&#8221; background_image=&#8221;145&#8243; background_image_as_pattern=&#8221;without_pattern&#8221; background_color=&#8221;#7d7b77&#8243; padding_top=&#8221;50&#8243; padding_bottom=&#8221;50&#8243; css_animation=&#8221;&#8221;][vc_column]<div id=\"ult-carousel-348768965169ea5c4c58242\" class=\"ult-carousel-wrapper  CustomQoute ult_horizontal\" data-gutter=\"50\" data-rtl=\"false\" ><div class=\"ult-carousel-306595322569ea5c4c580a6 \" >[vc_column_text css=&#8221;.vc_custom_1459495864258{padding-right: 10% !important;padding-left: 10% !important;}&#8221;]<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\u201cIt&#8217;s good to see that Asli Perker has improved even more as a story teller.\u201d<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>A. OMER TURKES \u2013 SABIT FIKIR<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>[\/vc_column_text]<\/div><\/div>\t\t\t<script type=\"text\/javascript\">\n\t\t\t\tjQuery(document).ready(function ($) {\n\t\t\t\t\tif( typeof jQuery('.ult-carousel-306595322569ea5c4c580a6').slick == \"function\"){\n\t\t\t\t\t\t$('.ult-carousel-306595322569ea5c4c580a6').slick({dots: true,autoplaySpeed: \"5000\",speed: \"300\",infinite: true,arrows: true,nextArrow: '<button type=\"button\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"Next\" style=\"color:#ffffff; font-size:36px;\" class=\"slick-next default\"><i class=\"ultsl-arrow-right6\"><\/i><\/button>',prevArrow: '<button type=\"button\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"Previous\" style=\"color:#ffffff; font-size:36px;\" class=\"slick-prev default\"><i class=\"ultsl-arrow-left6\"><\/i><\/button>',slidesToScroll:1,slidesToShow:1,swipe: true,draggable: true,touchMove: true,pauseOnHover: true,pauseOnFocus: false,responsive: [\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t{\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t  breakpoint: 1026,\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t  settings: {\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\tslidesToShow: 1,\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\tslidesToScroll: 1,  \n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t  }\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t},\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t{\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t  breakpoint: 1025,\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t  settings: {\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\tslidesToShow: 1,\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\tslidesToScroll: 1\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t  }\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t},\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t{\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t  breakpoint: 760,\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t  settings: {\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\tslidesToShow: 1,\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\tslidesToScroll: 1\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t  }\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\t\t\t],pauseOnDotsHover: true,customPaging: function(slider, i) {\n                   return '<i type=\"button\" style= \"color:#ffffff;\" class=\"ultsl-stop\" data-role=\"none\"><\/i>';\n                },});\n\t\t\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\t});\n\t\t\t<\/script>\n\t\t\t[\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_type=&#8221;row&#8221; use_row_as_full_screen_section=&#8221;no&#8221; type=&#8221;full_width&#8221; angled_section=&#8221;no&#8221; text_align=&#8221;left&#8221; background_image_as_pattern=&#8221;without_pattern&#8221; css_animation=&#8221;&#8221;][vc_column][vc_separator type=&#8221;transparent&#8221; up=&#8221;25&#8243; down=&#8221;25&#8243;][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_type=&#8221;row&#8221; use_row_as_full_screen_section=&#8221;no&#8221; type=&#8221;grid&#8221; angled_section=&#8221;no&#8221; text_align=&#8221;left&#8221; background_image_as_pattern=&#8221;without_pattern&#8221; css_animation=&#8221;&#8221;][vc_column width=&#8221;2\/3&#8243;][vc_tabs style=&#8221;vertical_left&#8221;][vc_tab title=&#8221;About&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;364f12a4-e969-0&#8243;][vc_column_text]She&#8217;s lost sleep a while ago, her eyes have sunken deep into dark circles, but Asli still keeps her secret\u00a0to herself, determined not to talk to anyone, find comfort in someone.<\/p>\n<p>The only person she would talk to, her grandmother, has past away recently anyway. No one else\u00a0matters.<\/p>\n<p>She is not close to pets as much as she is not close to people. She might be one of the few writers who\u00a0doesn&#8217;t like cats, but she starts living with one when she gets accepted in the writers&#8217; residency program\u00a0in Austria.<\/p>\n<p>The cat is not the only one who is new in her life. She meets a 130-years-old woman who claims she\u00a0can&#8217;t die. And becomes friends with a handsome handicapped man.<\/p>\n<p>Is the old woman a lier? Has her grandmother reincarnated in the cat? How many times can someone\u00a0become a murderer? Above all, is this really the best time for love?!<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI cannot believe that my grandmother is really gone. Since the day she&#8217;s died. Sometimes I feel like\u00a0she is just next to me. I smell her fragrance. She used the same perfume till she past away. It smelled\u00a0like soap. I keep smelling it. Especially when the cat is near me. Also she comes and sits next to me\u00a0when I&#8217;m reading something out loud. I mean&#8230;\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cLike your grandmother.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>She is embarrassed to have said that. But she had.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou think that I&#8217;d say you are crazy because you are telling me the cat might be your grandmother, is\u00a0that right?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Asli nods.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMy dear, I&#8217;m a woman who says she can&#8217;t die. I? I am going to think you&#8217;re crazy? You are really\u00a0sweet.\u201d[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][vc_tab title=&#8221;Excerpt I&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;1449054520790-2-1&#8243;][vc_column_text]\u201cBut I&#8217;m sure there is a solution. Insomnia is not that bad. My problem is much bigger.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Asli doesn&#8217;t like it when people talk about their problems when you&#8217;ve just talked about yours. Still, she\u00a0asks with her looks only. Daniella is a different woman after all. Go ahead, tell me what your problem\u00a0is. Daniella&#8217;s answer is as natural as everything else about her.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;m having a hard time dying.\u201d[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][vc_tab title=&#8221;Excerpt II&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;1449054579053-3-7&#8243;][vc_column_text]\u201cFor me, someone who doesn&#8217;t think realistically but still can stitch the open ends together is a writer.\u00a0Think of writing as a state of sleeping. We are free just like in our dreams while writing. But the\u00a0moment we wake up, we want to connect what we write to life just like we try to interpret our dreams.\u00a0Maybe we are as good writers as our readers &#8216;interpret&#8217; what we write. Because life is as absurd as it is\u00a0real and as real as it is absurd.\u201d[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][vc_tab title=&#8221;Excerpt III&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;1449054606947-4-1&#8243;][vc_column_text]What a big mistake; what a grave mistake to pick what is said to be the right path when one is young.\u00a0Get married, have a family, have kids, have grandchildren, get old, lose your husband, lose your child.\u00a0Lose your grandchild, stay behind, all alone, be the sole guard of this life, wait, wait, wait, wait. She\u00a0must have left at the time. She must have run away, leaving everything behind. Maybe to India. To\u00a0Shanghai. To Mexico. Even to Guatemala. Then she wouldn&#8217;t have been trapped in time like this. She\u00a0could have been alone, yes, but the colors of the first fifty years of her life would color the rest of it.\u00a0She feels herself in a black and white movie. A classic, yes, but boring. One time Hakan had told her\u00a0how people in Turkey lived constantly in danger, always close to death. There was no guarantee of life\u00a0in that country. A man had died when a truck ran over him even though he was standing on the\u00a0sidewalk for example. Daniella couldn&#8217;t comment since the young man was in a wheelchair but she had\u00a0thought \u201cThat&#8217;s it\u201d to herself, \u201cI should have lived in a place like that. So that death would chase me\u00a0while I tried to get away from it.\u201d[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][vc_tab title=&#8221;Excerpt IV&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;1449054644757-5-8&#8243;][vc_column_text]How do you date a handicap man? This is the question she googled. She doesn&#8217;t know how she is\u00a0supposed to be walking next to Hakan or if she has to bend over when she couldn&#8217;t hear what he said.\u00a0Does she have to kneel in front of him every time she wants to kiss him? Or would that offend him\u00a0each time? There is a much bigger question in her mind but its hard to find the answer for that. She\u00a0doesn&#8217;t know if he is active sexually. It&#8217;s not possible for her to inquire about this, but Hakan will\u00a0probably talk about it at a point in their relationship \u2013 of course assuming they will have one.[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][vc_tab title=&#8221;Excerpt V&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;1449054700531-6-6&#8243;][vc_column_text]\u201cLook brother, I&#8217;ve got nothing personal against you, but I just cannot listen to your excuses or accept\u00a0your apology yet. The best would be to change the subject. Here we are, where we have started again.\u00a0The artist will get over problems by talking, the artist is understanding, the artist is reasonable. Either\u00a0I&#8217;m not an artist or all these are lies. I cannot suppress the anger inside and be more understanding just\u00a0because I&#8217;m an artist.\u201d[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][vc_tab title=&#8221;Excerpt VI&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;1449054733232-7-6&#8243;][vc_column_text]How to withdraw that hand? Ursula has her hand on top of hers on the table; she doesn&#8217;t look anywhere\u00a0else but in her eyes. She envies people who can talk like that, yet she always wants to look somewhere\u00a0else. Both when she is talking and listening. How can she put that? She finds these kinds of\u00a0conversation too much. Too intense for her. Ursula had almost taken her prisoner with her looks. Her\u00a0hand feels like a rock under hers. She doesn&#8217;t know what to do. It would be weird if she withdrew it,\u00a0just like that. It would be even weirder if she held hers too. That hand is gone. It&#8217;s better to think that\u00a0way. Amputated. She doesn&#8217;t have her right hand anymore. It starts to feel numb. As if it doesn&#8217;t belong\u00a0to her. Better yet, Ursula can take that hand with her when she&#8217;s leaving. Dear God. The numbness\u00a0spreads through her arm. Almost below the shoulder is gone now. It&#8217;s that bad. How would Ursula\u00a0know that she could be this distant? She thinks that they&#8217;ve gotten close enough to hold her hand, look\u00a0her in the eye and tell her dear friend what&#8217;s on her mind. That&#8217;s how it should be, but this is Asli we\u00a0are talking about. It doesn&#8217;t matter how much she likes someone, when it comes to sharing deep\u00a0feelings she wants to escape. Touching or holding? God forbid![\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][vc_tab title=&#8221;Excerpt VII&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;1449054753665-8-3&#8243;][vc_column_text]\u201cYes, she is the perfect woman. She is beautiful to start with. Despite the fact that she looks ill. She is\u00a0fun to talk to. It&#8217;s obvious that you share the same taste in music. But what I see is that she&#8217;s not\u00a0matured yet. In fact, she is not a woman; she is a girl. She needs to be looked after. And you also&#8230;\u201d<\/p>\n<p>She stopped here. She&#8217;s gone too far, she knows. Hakan understands right away what she is saying.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI also need to be looked after, right?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cPlease remember who I am before you judge me. Since you are in love with someone else now, you\u00a0are going to understand whatever you want to understand and find faults in me. Please think before you\u00a0do this. You don&#8217;t need to be looked after, but you have to be taken care of.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIf you can use the expression &#8216;to be looked after&#8217; for someone who is not even handicapped, you\u00a0should use it even more so for me. Now, say it. Tell me I need to be looked after too. And tell me also,\u00a0how did it satisfy you to live with someone who depends on others all the time?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sophie knows their conversation has ended here. Just as she&#8217;d thought, Hakan is going to carry this\u00a0quarrel to another level and make himself believe that there&#8217;s a problem in their relationship. He is a\u00a0good guy, it&#8217;s not possible for him to leave without finding an excuse, just dump her like that. He is\u00a0going to leave. No matter what she says.[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][vc_tab title=&#8221;Excerpt VIII&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;1449054811021-9-1&#8243;][vc_column_text]\u201cOne of the seven sins, Asli, is Acedia. In Latin. In daily language it&#8217;s laziness. I&#8217;ve committed this\u00a0crime. Many times. I&#8217;ve studied in this city. I guess I didn&#8217;t tell you this either. I&#8217;ve graduated from\u00a0University of Music and Performing Arts of Vienna. Oh, those days! They were wonderful. One should\u00a0never talk about herself, how talented she is and etc, no, but since we cannot find anyone else to talk\u00a0about me at this age, I have to say; I was one of those students who had gained great respect and held\u00a0great prospects in this school from where Brahms and Mahler had graduated. But Asli, laziness. The\u00a0real problem that hides behind many excuses.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Daniella took a deep breath, Asl\u0131 is silent.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don&#8217;t know why I&#8217;m telling these. Maybe I want to preach a young woman who seems to have a\u00a0bright future ahead of her. Not being able to sleep is not a problem for you Asli. Don&#8217;t sleep, no, write\u00a0Asli, write. And as for me? I don&#8217;t want to get any rest, not today.\u201d[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][vc_tab title=&#8221;Excerpt IX&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;1449054849635-10-1&#8243;][vc_column_text]Daniella put what she had in her hands on her lap and opened the last piece of cloth. A small syringe.\u00a0When she raised her head this time she was asking with her looks: \u201cAre you ready?\u201d To be ready. It&#8217;s a\u00a0relative concept. Asli is not ready for anything in this world, yet she is ready for everything. She lives\u00a0in the perfect balance of this contradiction. She is not ready to love but she can love any minute. She is\u00a0not ready to get married, but she can any minute. She is definitely not ready for a child, but she can be\u00a0a mother too. She is not ready to die, but why not? To kill?.. She is never ready, but she can be.[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_tab][\/vc_tabs][vc_separator type=&#8221;transparent&#8221; up=&#8221;25&#8243; down=&#8221;25&#8243;][\/vc_column][vc_column width=&#8221;1\/3&#8243;][vc_single_image image=&#8221;335&#8243; img_size=&#8221;full&#8221; alignment=&#8221;center&#8221; style=&#8221;vc_box_rounded&#8221; qode_css_animation=&#8221;&#8221;][vc_separator type=&#8221;transparent&#8221; up=&#8221;25&#8243; down=&#8221;25&#8243;][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_type=&#8221;row&#8221; use_row_as_full_screen_section=&#8221;no&#8221; type=&#8221;grid&#8221; angled_section=&#8221;no&#8221; text_align=&#8221;center&#8221; background_image_as_pattern=&#8221;without_pattern&#8221; css_animation=&#8221;&#8221;][vc_column width=&#8221;1\/4&#8243;][vc_column_text]<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>HELP ME<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>[\/vc_column_text][vc_single_image image=&#8221;335&#8243; img_size=&#8221;full&#8221; alignment=&#8221;center&#8221; style=&#8221;vc_box_rounded&#8221; onclick=&#8221;custom_link&#8221; qode_css_animation=&#8221;&#8221; link=&#8221;\/en\/books\/help-me\/&#8221;][vc_separator type=&#8221;transparent&#8221; up=&#8221;25&#8243; down=&#8221;25&#8243;][\/vc_column][vc_column width=&#8221;1\/4&#8243;][vc_column_text]<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>SOUFFL\u00c9<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>[\/vc_column_text][vc_single_image image=&#8221;342&#8243; img_size=&#8221;full&#8221; alignment=&#8221;center&#8221; style=&#8221;vc_box_rounded&#8221; onclick=&#8221;custom_link&#8221; qode_css_animation=&#8221;&#8221; link=&#8221;\/en\/books\/souffle\/&#8221;][vc_separator type=&#8221;transparent&#8221; up=&#8221;25&#8243; down=&#8221;25&#8243;][\/vc_column][vc_column width=&#8221;1\/4&#8243;][vc_column_text]<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>EXECUTIONER\u2019S GRAVEYARD<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>[\/vc_column_text][vc_single_image image=&#8221;343&#8243; img_size=&#8221;full&#8221; alignment=&#8221;center&#8221; style=&#8221;vc_box_rounded&#8221; onclick=&#8221;custom_link&#8221; qode_css_animation=&#8221;&#8221; link=&#8221;\/en\/books\/executioners-graveyard\/&#8221;][vc_separator type=&#8221;transparent&#8221; up=&#8221;25&#8243; down=&#8221;25&#8243;][\/vc_column][vc_column width=&#8221;1\/4&#8243;][vc_column_text]<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>THE SCENT OF THE OTHERS<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>[\/vc_column_text][vc_single_image image=&#8221;344&#8243; img_size=&#8221;full&#8221; alignment=&#8221;center&#8221; style=&#8221;vc_box_rounded&#8221; onclick=&#8221;custom_link&#8221; qode_css_animation=&#8221;&#8221; link=&#8221;\/en\/books\/the-scent-of-the-others\/&#8221;][vc_separator type=&#8221;transparent&#8221; up=&#8221;25&#8243; down=&#8221;25&#8243;][\/vc_column][\/vc_row]<\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[vc_row row_type=&#8221;row&#8221; use_row_as_full_screen_section=&#8221;no&#8221; type=&#8221;grid&#8221; angled_section=&#8221;no&#8221; text_align=&#8221;center&#8221; background_image=&#8221;145&#8243; background_image_as_pattern=&#8221;without_pattern&#8221; background_color=&#8221;#7d7b77&#8243; padding_top=&#8221;50&#8243; padding_bottom=&#8221;50&#8243; css_animation=&#8221;&#8221;][vc_column][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_type=&#8221;row&#8221; use_row_as_full_screen_section=&#8221;no&#8221; type=&#8221;full_width&#8221; angled_section=&#8221;no&#8221; text_align=&#8221;left&#8221; background_image_as_pattern=&#8221;without_pattern&#8221; css_animation=&#8221;&#8221;][vc_column][vc_separator type=&#8221;transparent&#8221; up=&#8221;25&#8243; down=&#8221;25&#8243;][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_type=&#8221;row&#8221; use_row_as_full_screen_section=&#8221;no&#8221; type=&#8221;grid&#8221; angled_section=&#8221;no&#8221; text_align=&#8221;left&#8221; background_image_as_pattern=&#8221;without_pattern&#8221; css_animation=&#8221;&#8221;][vc_column width=&#8221;2\/3&#8243;][vc_tabs style=&#8221;vertical_left&#8221;][vc_tab title=&#8221;About&#8221; tab_id=&#8221;364f12a4-e969-0&#8243;][vc_column_text]She&#8217;s lost sleep a while ago, her eyes have sunken deep into dark&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"parent":316,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"full_width.php","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-317","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/317","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=317"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/317\/revisions"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/316"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/asliperker.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=317"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}